Thursday, February 18, 2010
End of Day Analysis - I Found the Entry of the Day And Screwed It Up But It's Not All Bad
So I am getting to feel better regarding my new lack of urgency to trade and my new lack of compulsion to trade and my new respect for risk and I can go on and on, but that's already in my 800 handwritten pages of my personal journal. The part of today that is not all bad is that I am not trying to trade anymore. I am just analyzing and finding the entry. Once again, I did. So it's not all bad.
The reason why I wasn't really ready for the entry is the remnant of my prior trader self. I was doing all the right things today, however, and this is just crazy, but not nonsense, I was just as pessimistic of my chances for success as I had become due to my prior trader self's poor trading. So here I was today, being a skilled analyst, but still not believing yet how far I've truly come. I am giving myself time to get it, even tho I really don't have time, I don't have any other choice. I am going to keep analyzing and find the "the" entry and one of these times, I will take it and I will have the right stop and it will work out fine. When doesn't matter any more because I am allowing myself to do it when I feel I'm ready. Maybe just writing this here will speed that up. Maybe it will be tomorrow. Stay tuned.